Monday, November 28, 2011

You and I... GAGA

Lately I have been super overwhelmed with life, school and motherhood but above else my emotions have been ALL over the PLACE and I've been having very vivid dreams.
As usual I find my solace in music. One song in particular that has been in my head and I've actually been singing as I walk down the street is Lady Gaga's You and I.
I have literally fallen asleep singing it, woken up singing it and I'm singing it right now. Whenever a song or certain event gets stuck in my head I truly think its for a reason and try to find out the meaning of it.

Like I said I have been very emotional lately which is unusual for me, anyone that knows me knows I do NOT do emotions... in the slightest. The fact that I was waiting for my train the other day and tears were forming in my eyes truly scared the crap out of me. Lol.
Then the other day when I watched one of my favorite shows, Glee, they were singing You and I by Lady Gaga! What are the chances? I had to get to the bottom of the reason as to why this song was on my mind so much.

After evaluating my dreams and truly thinking about them I came to the conclusion that I need to release and face some of the hurt and anger I thought I done a good job at suppressing. On top of that I've been realizing that because I had to grow up very fast, even before becoming a mom, I never got the chance to come into my own person.

Now I am not a self declared "Little Monster" ( die hard Lady Gaga fan) but I do love and respect the fact that Lady Gaga is fearlessly, fiercely and above else UNapolgetically her. Call her weird, strange or whatever but you can not deny that she does what she wants, when she wants and doesn't care what people think because thats just who she is. This is what I am working towards achieving. I'm not all the way there and although I have come a long way to getting there I have a few things to take care of before I can be there 100%.

I know the song is mostly about her relationship with a man but it is also about her relationship with herself. The way I am taking the meaning of the song is I need to get to the place where I am me! All me, fearlessly me and freely me. After googling the meaning and finding this I felt better for some reason...?

Thank you for reading.