Sunday, March 11, 2012
I pulled out a pen and paper and mapped out the remainder of my undergraduate academic career. When I wad done, and double checked, I realized that this year is my last year of college! To many this is reason to celebrate, for me it sent me over the edge. I began looking at my life in retrospect and decided that, in short, I was a loser. I hadn't accomplished everything that I had hoped to accomplish this far in my academic career and after seeing that my life long goal of traveling abroad was financially unobtainable I felt like shit.
Then a combination of things happened. I spoke to my sisters, I took a deep breath, I'm still surprised I didn't reach fo wine, and asked myself one question: how the hell did get in this position? How did I allow the planning of my Summer semester to turn into planning a year and then a negative retrospection of my life?
My answer: I was trying to control and plan the future. An intangible aspect of life that I have already learned time and time again that will work out how it is ment to regardless of my planning.
In that moment I learned rule number one of time management:
You can only plan present time.
I'm not saying not to plan for the future what I am saying is don't try to control the future.