Thursday, July 12, 2012

NO MORE over scheduling myself!

I am the best at putting too much on the plate and then bugging out. True, I can and like to multi-task however, there are times when I really can get in over my head because of trying to do everything at once.

This summer for example. I had two summer courses and would have had me in school from 2:30-7:00pm

An internship Monday and Wednesday and work on some
Tuesdays and Thursdays; all the while blogging and being a mother.

My financial situation wasn't- still isn't- too good. Which means I would have to find a sitter that would watch her, which I have, for about 40 a week and pay her little to nothing, which no one would do.

I was stressing about it and found the closest solution I could to making it all work but it would have been stressful and VERY TAXING for everyone involved and meant that I would have to miss about three weeks of my awesome internship.

Yesterday I went to go visit my friends and work and they all told me to drop it. I came up with horrible "reasons" as to why I needed it and they looked at me as to say " you do hear yourself right?" I did hear myself and I sounded absolutely bat shit crazy!

Then I looked at what I would really be accomplishing by taking the those courses over the summer. The answer NOTHING! It wouldn't move my graduation date up, it wouldn't make my last semester a lot easier, it wouldn't do anything but cost me 2k( the price of the classes combined) and a ton of stress and money on a babysitter.

What the hell was I thinking?!? I am proud to say that I have officially dropped my summer cousres!

I feel SO much better! I feel like a weight has been lifted off my shoulders! I realized why I was so stuck on taking those courses and it was because I am stuck on trying to constantly prove that ' I can' to myself! Crazy right?! Being in an unhealthy competition with myself. Well I'm not engaging in that anymore. I will continue to challenege myself but in a healthy way!

You have enough to worry about, REMOVE THE UNNECESSARY STRESS!

2 comments:

  1. It's always nice to have friends that help talk you off the ledge. Looking back it seems like you see how much you crowded your plate. I'm the same way, it seems I can only thrive when I'm super stressed and have a million things to do. But what ends up happening is I half ass it, and rush through JUST to cross things off the list. So how can I give you advice on slowing down when it's impossible for me to do so myself? Easy - I've been down the road and know firsthand the downfalls of overextending yourself. This was especially true when I was in college, but I needed to give myself a break. YOU need to give yourself a break. Glad you are removing the unnecessary stress from your life :)

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    1. I have the same problem half ass-ing things when I have too much on my plate. BUT NO MORE! Putting too much pressure on myself is really bad for me, anyone really, so I need to take care of myself and limit myself.

      Thank you for reading and your comment :))

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