Thursday, July 12, 2012

NO MORE over scheduling myself!

I am the best at putting too much on the plate and then bugging out. True, I can and like to multi-task however, there are times when I really can get in over my head because of trying to do everything at once.

This summer for example. I had two summer courses and would have had me in school from 2:30-7:00pm

An internship Monday and Wednesday and work on some
Tuesdays and Thursdays; all the while blogging and being a mother.

My financial situation wasn't- still isn't- too good. Which means I would have to find a sitter that would watch her, which I have, for about 40 a week and pay her little to nothing, which no one would do.

I was stressing about it and found the closest solution I could to making it all work but it would have been stressful and VERY TAXING for everyone involved and meant that I would have to miss about three weeks of my awesome internship.

Yesterday I went to go visit my friends and work and they all told me to drop it. I came up with horrible "reasons" as to why I needed it and they looked at me as to say " you do hear yourself right?" I did hear myself and I sounded absolutely bat shit crazy!

Then I looked at what I would really be accomplishing by taking the those courses over the summer. The answer NOTHING! It wouldn't move my graduation date up, it wouldn't make my last semester a lot easier, it wouldn't do anything but cost me 2k( the price of the classes combined) and a ton of stress and money on a babysitter.

What the hell was I thinking?!? I am proud to say that I have officially dropped my summer cousres!

I feel SO much better! I feel like a weight has been lifted off my shoulders! I realized why I was so stuck on taking those courses and it was because I am stuck on trying to constantly prove that ' I can' to myself! Crazy right?! Being in an unhealthy competition with myself. Well I'm not engaging in that anymore. I will continue to challenege myself but in a healthy way!

You have enough to worry about, REMOVE THE UNNECESSARY STRESS!