Monday, October 15, 2012

I Figured IT Out

I am very excited! I have so many wonderful opportunities coming up for me! However, I'm more excited about the fact that I found out the origin of a lot of my stress, lack of help with Leilani.

Why I'm I excited about the lack of help that I have when it comes to Leilani. Because now I know what I should really be trying to fix.

I have been looking for my stress source for a while now and after thinking it was meal planning ( which it can be), lack of having a planner (having a planner would totally help) or 'not enough time in the day' syndrome most deal with. I realized it really is not enough time in the day.

I'm not talking about the usual sit around and do nothing then complain when you have to do everything at the last minute (which I do sometimes).

Let me explain to you all how I LEGIT do not have enough time in the day. I wake up at 6:30am, drop Leilani off at 8am, get to school at 9am, have class from 9am-2pm then I have to rush home to get Leilani.

Once I have Leilani my day turns into Leilani's day. Complete with her homework, spending time together, feeding her and the usual bedtime routine. On good days she's in bed by 8pm and sleeping by 8:30.

But then I have dishes to do, need to unwind myself and hope I'm awake enough to actually understand my notes from my classes.

Then on Tuesdays and Fridays I work until 4/5-ish. Then do the above routine.

I have no time for study groups, club meetings, blogging, anything really.

See my problem is my days end at 2pm. I don't know about you but for me it's hard to do all I NEED to do between 9am-2pm. All the while sitting in class straight during those times.

I NEED help! I need her to have an after school program. I need to have study groups so I don't fail. I need to have time to work on the tasks that will ensure us the future we want.

Right now.

Since I don't have that I'll try pulling all nighters.