Sunday, March 31, 2013

My Baby is Turning Seven and I'm Bugging Out

Leilani is turning seven years old in 10 days and I am scared.

A forewarning, this post is going to be a neurotic, paranoid, projection post from a slightly neurotic mother.  

SEVEN years old! I am so proud, happy, and grateful to be able to see her turn seven. To watch her grow into the scientist and performer she is but I'm scared.

I'm scared that she is half way to 14 years old.

  • ...the age I became sexually active 
  • The age I felt lonely, alone, and depressed at times 
  • The age when I began to realize that my body was a blessing and a curse 
  • The age that I thought I knew something but in retrospect I realize I didn't know shit
  • The age that everyone is trying to tell you who you should be and not fully understanding that you are and can be the person you are and want to be
  • The age when I PERFECTED the art of fooling people about my emotions
Fourteen was a hard year for me. I think it's a hard year for many and I'm scared for my baby girl and I want to be the best mom for her that she needs and wants. 

But... it's only seven this year so I think I'll relax and enjoy it.

Don't forget our GoFundMe page to help make Leilani's birthday wishes come true.