Wednesday, June 26, 2013

TMI Confession: Dating...?

Often people will ask me if I'm dating or seeing anyone. My answer is always no, no, not really interested in dating... until recently.



I find myself missing the feeling of having someone.
Someone to spend time with, hang out with, joke with, you know... all of the things that come along with a healthy adult relationship. I miss it but I'm not sure that I want to even entertain the idea of dating.

Truth is I don't really have free time and if I did I feel spending it on dating would be a waste of time, a distraction, and this whole idea is so strange to me! I don't know how to deal with the feelings that I'm trying to not feel. LOL.

People tell me it's okay to feel like this. It's been years since I officially left Leilani's father not including the months before separating that I found myself not liking/loving him.

But it all seems too complicated. The complicatedness (is that a word) of just thinking about it is enough to make me not want to entertain the idea. LOL.

I think for now I am going to keep trying to ignore the feelings.
That sounds like a better idea.

I'm a mess. 

What do you think? Is it time? 

4 comments:

  1. Ay Gloria! :) Dating is a distraction, but a welcome one sometimes. I have tried to re-enter the dating game this yr and nothing has panned out, but it has helped me discover more about myself. What I will/won't do and also what I TRULY want in a relationship. If you feel like it's a good time in your life go for it. Don't forget we all need adult interaction/conversation and it could do you some good. Ultimately, you know what works for you. ;)

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  2. Im with Cicely do it when you are ready to invest your time and commit to it, otherwise people will notice. It is a distraction only if you want it to be. Keep in mind we all need a healthy balance. You are nit just a mom but a woman witj needs as well and we all deserve someone to be there for us as well, intellectual my, spiritually, physically and emotionally. Also if you ever meet somone you are truly interested in yrust me you will make the time. Dating is a well worth experience to have you learn many things about men and yourself. Yook me 4 yrs to date after I left my dons father bc i wasn't ready and now im dating someone i like very much. So take yr time there's no rush.

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