Wednesday, June 26, 2013
TMI Confession: Dating...?
I find myself missing the feeling of having someone.
Someone to spend time with, hang out with, joke with, you know... all of the things that come along with a healthy adult relationship. I miss it but I'm not sure that I want to even entertain the idea of dating.
Truth is I don't really have free time and if I did I feel spending it on dating would be a waste of time, a distraction, and this whole idea is so strange to me! I don't know how to deal with the feelings that I'm trying to not feel. LOL.
People tell me it's okay to feel like this. It's been years since I officially left Leilani's father not including the months before separating that I found myself not liking/loving him.
But it all seems too complicated. The complicatedness (is that a word) of just thinking about it is enough to make me not want to entertain the idea. LOL.
I think for now I am going to keep trying to ignore the feelings.
That sounds like a better idea.
I'm a mess.
What do you think? Is it time?