Tuesday, September 24, 2013

Accepting My Depression

I haven't been in a good place lately. 

I have days when I'm sad and the next day it's gone. However, there are times when it seems a huge dark cloud moves in and no matter how bright it is outside nothing seems positive.

Perhaps it's years of repressing emotions and denying myself that I am a human and therefore an emotional creature but it hit me like a ton of bricks that I have and have had depression. I still debate rather I can actually have depression or not because depression seems like something so abstract and something that "only happens to sad people." 

But after Dr. Googling myself, thinking back to when I was younger, and being honest with myself I realize that I have depression and its okay- so long as I finally learn how to deal with it in a healthy way. 

I spoke to one of my friends yesterday and she told me that it sounds like I have depression, that I should talk to a doctor, and most importantly that it's okay. 

I'm sorry for not being as consistent as usual with blogging, Facebook, and Twitter. Thank you for being patient with me. 

Please be patient with me while I work on learning how to deal with depression in a healthy way and getting back to "normal."