Thursday, October 3, 2013
Being Still is Just as Important as Being Active.
After repeating to myself over and over again that everything is alright and there is no reason to start the week off on the wrong foot I drank some positive mood tea and headed out to school.
In the middle of the day one of my friends text me to read the thing she tagged me on on Facebook. As I was waiting in the never ending line at Chipotle for my over stuffed burrito I read what she tagged me in and felt so much more at ease.
Later on in statistics-where I was actively pretending to understand what was going on- I felt a rush thoughts come into my head and soon my hand started writing them out quicker than I could process the thoughts.
I looked down and read what I had just written.
"When I stopped trying to find what to 'do', 'achieve', and or 'collaborate' next I started to feel a lot better. I began to learn more, listen more, observe more. In essence I began to live.
I began to live.
Life is what happens while you're busy doing other stuff*. I don't want to be doing 'other stuff,' I want to live."
*poorly quoted from John Lennon
People tend to say that I'm always doing something and my sisters all say that I'm too hard on myself. Both are true, I am. I also don't know how to not be hard on myself and be still full time. The answer is I don't have to be.
I don't ALWAYS have to be doing something. I don't always have to be something to feel like I'm someone.
The part of the passage that hit home the most was:
Activity is not the opposite of inactivity. Yes, linguistically they’re opposites, but in terms of our path of growth, they’re actually one and the same. Activity on an inner level often necessitates inactivity on the outer (hence we go on retreat to turn within, or merely sleep and dream our way through a dilemma), and vice versa (‘I don’t have time to meditate!! I’m way too busy!!’). And no matter what the world tells us, one form of activity is not better, or worse, than the other.If you feel like a hamster on a wheel STOP. Stop thinking that being busy automatically equals success or productivity, I doesn't. Being still is just as important.
You can read the entire passage below or here
30th September 2013: New Moon on the Horizon…
Activity Within & Without
We may find ourselves ending the month in a state of restlessness, approaching a New Moon (4th/5th October) which requires introspection and quietude, whilst being painfully aware of all manner of things demanding our attention. These can feel like conflicting energies and we could find ourselves running from pillar to post impatiently trying to get everything to a state of completion without realising that the time for completion is not yet here and the unfinished nature of life, tasks, problems and projects is exactly right for this time.
Part of our impatience may arise from feeling, albeit subconsciously, that if we stop ‘doing’ we may end up wandering aimlessly, unable to chart any kind of meaningful course through life. Far better that we engage with things and work for signs of progress than float off downstream never to be seen again! In fact, this is a false choice. It isn’t an either or: stay engaged or lose our way. It’s far more subtle than that, and it’s the subtleties of the situation that we’d do well to consider today.
Activity is not the opposite of inactivity. Yes, linguistically they’re opposites, but in terms of our path of growth, they’re actually one and the same. Activity on an inner level often necessitates inactivity on the outer (hence we go on retreat to turn within, or merely sleep and dream our way through a dilemma), and vice versa (‘I don’t have time to meditate!! I’m way too busy!!’). And no matter what the world tells us, one form of activity is not better, or worse, than the other. We live in a world that judges us according to what we produce, the concrete results of our labours, not the quality of our heart or the depth of our wisdom. But the activity necessary for developing the latter is vital to the fulfilment of our potential. Not potential in material terms but potential in terms of playing the most powerful and positive part we can in the transformation of the human race and the planet on which we live.
Today is a day to resist the dictates of a world which equates power with material wealth and value with what we can produce. To let go the restlessness that says we must be doing at all times, getting stuff completed and under our belts, ticked off the ‘to do’ list of life, and to embrace the production of inner wealth in terms of an open heart, an insightful mind and an awakening spirit. It may not be the most convenient time for this, it being Monday and all, but the cosmos doesn’t really do working weeks. So no matter how busy and stressed we may find ourselves today, juggling the demands of the outside world to be productive and of use, we would be wise to take at least a bit of time to be externally inactive and turn within, connecting with our heart, with our spirit, to see what they have to share. Who knows, they may actually have some good advice about how to get that huge to-do list done, but it’ll be in their way, not the way of the world. And in following their guidance we will be balancing internal and external activity in a productive and healing way.
Have a good week everyone.
~ Sarah Varcas