Friday, July 11, 2014

Life After College Ramblings

Life after college is... a lot. 

I feel accomplished, scared, relieved, worried, and scared all at once. (Did I say scared twice?) 

I don't have a full time job yet. 
My writing took a hit first because of school and then because of my emotions so I felt completely lost for a while. A writer feeling like they can't write is like feeling like you can't breathe. 

Now that I finished my last last class of undergrad... I'm really done. 

The other day I was asked by someone what do you do? I kind of freaked out a bit. My go to answer is was "I'm a full time student" usually followed with a smile, genuine or forced depending on how I felt about school at the time, but now... I'm just me. 

Don't get me wrong I think just me is amazing. 
I love just me. 
It seems for like the first time in my life I can hear my thoughts a bit more clearly, me coming into myself is becoming less work (still work but it doesn't seem so damn hard anymore), I'm more confident in my abilities, and overall I'm very excited. 

School and college specifically was such a large part of my life and having it not there is weird... 

For now I'm enjoying my time. Looking for a full time. 
Allowing my creativity to speak to me.